Sunday, March 22, 2009

bad news, bad migraine

I really don't like to post bad news, but this is a very bad news and I realize I want to post it. I've been suffering three weeks of non stop head aches, this is bad and terrible, my health it's not the best these days and I really don't know what to do.
One of the doctors, the acupuncturist, says that I have fatigue, that all my pulses are low, I am always so enthusiastic, but I think is true, I feel that I have a four years tension and four years whit out vacations, and that is hard.
Right now I can't even assist to college, I can hardly stand light or noise, the only way the head ache decrease is when I am lying on my bed, alone as usual. I had to stop going to the radio which is a big cause of stress, and stop going to the Temple.
I am here in closed in my magic room.

One night I realized that I keep having very intense fears, and it's normal, I haven't seen my mom or my brother and I don't have medical insurance, the good news is that I have a good work, good friends and good luck... uff.

I also realized that I haven't write anything in my blog, and it is so important for me to communicate, I feel like "cristalizada", like in a shell of cristal, Its little bit frustrating to be so afraid to express your self, I do prefer silence but yet i will continue this blog and say in loud voice what I think about the world, about my projections about the world and everything, even If I'm stubbornly wrong, I think this is going to be a good way to decompress my fears and anguish.
I really wish I can obtain more wisdom this year in order I can get into another step, I know I will, and sometimes this critic and weird health crisis will rapidly heal soon, believe me it's very scary to have a head ache for three days consecutively for three weeks, go bed with head ache and wake up with head ache.
I've thought that I have a tumor and that I am going to die, imagine?! Well at list write now that I am writing this... I found it very funny :) but I really don't want to die.

don't worry I will be fine
(but pray for me and for people in Uganda)
peace

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

sex in the city

Well I confess that I have the most beautiful and great new roommate, her name is Atya, she is a special african american lovely negrita.

So, Atya has the collection of the series "Sex and the City" and I have watch like two or three chapters with her. I know Atya has a very special connection with God, and she is quite conservative, so I imagine she likes this series like all the people that like this series because it's funny, Sex in the city makes fun whit the most superficial topic, Sex in the City or at the City is incredible extremely SUPERFICIAL, so hard that it becomes light i mean "fat free". Ridiculous eh? I really can't share the idea to have sex just because fun and superficial, yet there are a lot of people that don't care with who have sex and have sex all the time whit I don't know who or exactly why, for me it's just a loosing of time, and ahorita (rigth now) this image of happiness that want to sell us where everything is about shopping, eat, have fun and sex, uuuh... sucks.
It remembers me so hard to Burning man! I don't see any difference.

:)