When I keep my sword

... feliz cumple hermanito
(aveces tengo que repetirlo varias veces cuando parece que las fuerzas se me van, pero nunca me abandonan)

And then…
when I keep my sword,
I go to bed,
hug my pillow,
talk with God…and His million universes”
sleeping in His endless hands.

"Do not give up, my little child,
the smallest of the small."
"Do not be terrified.
Come with me to take a walk
through my collection of stars."

I am here my Great Master
The Biggest of the Kings,
The infinite mind.
The emptiness. The form.

“Let the Mystery be revealed:
the preciousness of human life,
mountain spirits, singing birds,
ocean’s music, shining colors, river beats.”

I am here,
my Great Lord, All Compassion,
Loving Power,
The emptiness. The form.

“Do not give up my little warrior
the smallest of the small,
I am here, I am there, I am everywhere”

And then…
I woke up,
leave the pillow,
clean my sword,
drink a cup of tea,
and go out to the street.

To my friends and family con amor natta*
La Haotzima _

January 31st 2010

i am in L.A.
and i just got the longest shower of my life, as usual,
is it a big debilty? weekness!, in fact, i shouldn't but i love it, I swam all my childhood, i even went to national to compete against other big sharks, i was just a tiny rainbow fish, but fast :), I swam from monday to saturday three to four hours per day. On Sunday famyly used to visit us and we went to the river, accuatic centers, or end up at the same Country club where i swam all the time.

But this shower that i took was special, i was doing home work and i said, uhhh i need a shower, I was driving all the morning ---feeling freeeeeeee---- but very tired... anyway the point is that i am in a chinese motel in L.A. doing homework, very tired and i decided to take a shower, and i go to the chinese shower and when i'm in the middle of the water, the water decided to get cold... oh oh oh nooooo, don't panic, relax, hot water will come just don't move, so i focus, and starting to count the drops uno, dos tres, cuarenta y cinco, ochenta y seis,,, flapping my back, plip plepp plip plepp water i love you water i love you.. all of them waters swimming in my head.. water is the MAXIMO, so step by plepp the water started to get waarmer and warmer... till the light got off ooooooooooh oooooooooh darkenrs i dont like darkenes
calma
relax,
i was about to scream Mayraaaaaaaaa (my roomate) when
i move a little bit and the light was a sensor chinese light and it came back just in time to dance with hot hot hot water aaaaaaaaaah! then i put perfume :P
la la lal laaaa
did i say?... yes i... i said that i drove all the morning, taking turns with Mayra,
when was my time to sleep, i got this dream, that is not a dream... i get off my body and i was watching at the landscape, scary at the beginning, then i got used, the trick is to not get anxius and do not desesperate... i played with my hands in the landscape, i try to get Mayra's attention, i let my arms float, everything was brighter, then i fall asleep.

i didn't say to Mayra. I like to keep it only for me and then write it here, it's not easy to write this kind of descriptions in english neither in spanish.

Anyway i forgot to write when an angel or some Dharma Protective Deity came to spy over my shoulder when i was cooking some frijoles, or was i doing some tea?, i don't remember the trick is that when i turned to the sink, ah haaaaaaa there he/she/it was... it was so dense (good energy) that my reflect was to bend my uperbody just like when you are about to avoid someone or something to heat you at your head... super fast, i'm talking about nano seconds, you know when ougrps! down, hu oooop hi!... you know when you react fast ---haaaaaaa!
i wish i could see he/she/it more clear.

i go to sleep now, here a photo of one super duper wonderful frog swimmer,
tomorrow i finiish my home work, it's almos done ;)

oup i forgot ... tomorrow i'm gonna dance at the Chines New Year, as every year... and i hope i win something in the rafle, like 7,000 dollars or maybe more.
If I win, i'll buy a new car for my little bro in Mex.

wish me good luck

besos
n