I was waiting to
feel this happy and peaceful to write bad and good news.
I was
very surprised when some friends and family members asked me why I
haven't write my monthly email?
the answer is:
Our Dear Carla
Zilbersmith past away in her house around her family members and
friends, the best community i have EVER met.
I was one of her
caregivers, she was a 47 years old biutifulest, preciosa, funniestest
woman.
Even if I try very hard to be a good Buddhist
disciple with the awareness that we should not been moved by fame,
gain, prosperity, decline, fortune, gladness, increase, decrease,
antipathy, resentment, anger, hatred, scheming, defamation, seizing,
harm, sickness, suffering, parting and death...
I was humanly sad.
My
mom and my cousin asked me to write my biggestestestest impressions my
biggestisima lesson.
And the easiest way to share this is with the
next drawing that I title: TENTACLES / TENTACULOS
This
is my theory:
I believe we are luminous eggs carrying a stinky body
car. We have this invisible tentacles and since we are born we learn to
attach to ...everything, mom, dad, brothers, sisters, friends, houses,
pets, dreams, thoughts, believes, habits, conducts, traumas, food,
beauty, money, desires, lies, principles, carrier, body, life.
I
saw how Carlita had to detached her tentacles from everything,
how
she had to say "Adios" to her singing voice. She had to say "Adios" to
her expectations and dreams, "Adios" to eat, "Adios" to shower, "Adios"
to her sun.
When things turned very bad I
trained my self to unleash my invisible tentacles from her, because i
know it is very difficult we, luminous eggs, can go if we are not free.
And it doesn't mean we don't love, it means that when you really love
you let go. I was AMAZED to see all her family and all her friends doing
the same with their tentacles, it was beautiful. Gracias to be part of
my destiny.
Here my confessions:
- I confess that i felt
bad because I didn't want to make me the tattoo that the rest of the
caregiver did in the name of Carla. In a moment of bravery and pure
camaraderie, and not wanting to look so chicken, I gave to Carlita the
oath of five days of silence in her name.
Whaaaaaaaaaaat?!!! (i will take about this later, maybe)
-I confess
that more than once i wanted to quit and go hide some place. I'm
surprise to realized that loyalty to your mission no matter how small it
looks, is one of the best victories.
-I confess that I was
trying to find a good excuse to do not go to the funeral, and I end up
giving a speech, and laughing como una loca. I hugged and hugged and
felt so much love and comprehension that i think i did like three rounds
of hugs and I ate all the cookies and keep hugging, it was the most
amazing funeral Carlita could prepared us. To watch the video she did
from heaven please click here.
-I confess that I learned that if you're
having a panic attack i can give you this medicine named LORAZAPUNK and
you'll be laughing and telling me jokes :)
Adios mi hermosa
Carla Zilbersmith, you are LIBRE, wait for me in heaven.
Te amo.
In my opinion one of the
BEST contemporary fusions of technology and ancestral. Their music is a
synonym of wisdom, light and good taste. They make you travel to the
future with a message of the past.
My friend
Paul Cabezas, the founder of New Eden Projects, when randomly talking I mention to him
about an idea I had in mind, he told me, I want to help you!!!.
He
and his family are these kind of people that their only thinking is how
to support other people. Gracias
Mayra, Maria
and Kim who are my family (as well as Iliana and Michael mi neighbors,
two cats and two little parrots) when they listened to this idea, they
were 100% committed and working hard in The Tea Dancers / Ballet de la
compasión.
The Tea Dancers / Ballet de la
Compasión, is a dance troupe and this summer we will be dancing for the
old people, the sick, the abandon, the last ones, the needy. We are
going to be performing at senior centers, homeless shelters, hospitals,
ghettos and ugly places.
The main goals are
1.-To bring
inspiration to those people who need it the most.
2.-An exercise of
compassion, we believe that if you don't touch sufffer, smell suffer,
see suffering, it is difficult to realize true compassion.
Please
help us and support us in our first fundraiser, or send me your ideas
about hospitals, foster centers, public schools that you think it would
be good idea to support them with inspiration.
We have already a list
, and I confess I'm kind of happy and SCARE too.
Thank
you Paul, Gracias Lulacruza, Gracias familia y amigos.
LULACRUZA is here in a USA tour!!!
In my opinion one of the BEST contemporary fusions of technology and ancestral. Their music is a synonym of wisdom, light and good taste. They make you travel to the future with a message of the past.
